Sometimes I feel lost

And the darkness comes in

Sometimes I feel insecure

And the voices start again

Sometimes I feel broken

And the pain aches everywhere

Sometimes I feel incomplete

And the emptiness is deep

Sometimes I feel bad

For nothing I did

Sometimes I feel wrong

For existing and living

Sometimes I feel weird

About who I am

Sometimes I feel small

And I’m a child again

You take all the bad away...

My night terror is extreme. I feel like the bed is trying to keep me in place, bounding me there, in a cruel torture. I try to find you, my lover, but the bed prevents me, holding me down, stopping my screams for you.

Suddenly I awake. You are finally there. I crash into your arms, needing the safety of your body, the warmth of your embrace. I'm trembling from the night terror. I feel your gentle strokes through my hair, your calm voice telling me that I'm safe, that you love me, that it's all okay.

You begin to kiss me, on the temple, the forehead, the cheeks. You finally find my lips. Your sweet kisses calm me. We begin to kiss deeply, passionately. Your hands roam my near naked body. I tingle at your touch. The sensations ripple through my entire being, making me moan. Your lips and hands fondling and caressing me make me so wet.

Your mouth finds my pussy. So softly you being to kiss and tease me. I shutter and quake. You start to lick faster, and slurping up my sweet nectar. I moan louder and squeeze your head between my thighs. You go deeper, flicking my clit every now and then. My head swims with the delirious sensations as orgasms wash over my body. I'm screaming and thrashing on the bed uncontrollably as your fingers and tongue work their magic.

Just when I think I can't take anymore, you stop and pull me up. You kiss me, devouring me with your mouth. I taste myself and feel your hard, throbbing cock rub up against me.

You take me to a chair and sit down. I straddle you and begin to ride your cock so hard. I love the feeling of you so deep inside of me. My tits in your mouth, you suck and nibble on them. I'm moaning loud again as I grind your lap, your hands on my ass, bouncing me, pulling my cheeks apart.

I hear you say that you are about to cum and I climb off of you and start kissing and licking down your body till I'm kneeling before you. I take your pulsating dick into my moist mouth and begin to suck. Your hands gently pull my hair as I look into your eyes. I feel your thrusts into my throat. I squeeze your balls to encourage you to cum. By the look on your face, I know it will be soon,

I feel your hot cum shoot into my mouth. I suck it up greedily, loving the taste, swallowing it. When you are done, you pull me up into the biggest embrace and kiss me so passionately. The night terror is long gone, replaced by your sweet love.

Always doubting myself
Never believing anything
Why would things be different
How could they be...
I'm just me
... Insecure
... Doubtful
... Full of self hate
I am me
Sarah C Me

The Waves of Ecstasy

"In the hot steamy shower I feel his hands washing my hair, his body pressed against mine. My eyes are closed, a little smile on my lips as I enjoy the eroticism of his hands in my hair, his lips on my neck. The water rinses my hair as his hands go down my body lightly sending shivers all over me. His fingers slide between my legs and find how wet I am. They find that magic spot that starts me moaning so loud and make my legs quake.

I need to steady myself against the wall as he continues to prime my clit. One leg up on the side of the tub, I'm grinding on his fingers and lost in the passion. I have no idea how long I've been screaming and moaning, but I'm shaking uncontrollably all over and can hardly stand anymore.

We leave the shower and he lays me on the bed. His tongue dives into me and I'm pounding the bed with my fists as I'm screaming more and more. My back is arching as the orgasm seems to be a never ending wave of fire. I feel so incredible, but at the same time, so exhausted by the workout that I'm getting.

He stops at last, as I don't think I could take anymore, and lays down on the bed. I hungrily attack his hard cock with my mouth, deeply, sucking as I go down on him. I feel his hands once again in my hair, slightly pulling. I feel him thrusting into my mouth, moans escaping from his throat. I taste his precum.

Suddenly I feel him pull me up towards him. I slide his hard cock in to my soaking wet pussy as we kiss so deeply. His kisses always feel like he is trying to devour me. I love them so much. I start to ride his cock hard and I feel him thrust up into me, making me moan so loud each time. We look into each others eyes as we lock hands. I start to cum again, and I know he is so close. We almost cum together, feeling each other shake and jolt. I feel his hot spunk fill me up. I collapse on his chest, breathless, hearing his heart beat as fast as mine."

I open my eyes and know that I won't be alone for long. I take my lelo toy and clean it properly and decide to clean up. I know that this fantasy will soon be real when you walk through the door.

Voices in my head...

Sometimes tell me I’m not worth it.

Sometimes tell me I’m not valuable.

Sometimes tell me I’m not good enough.

Sometimes tell me I’m not anything.

Sometimes tell me I’m not going to be happy.

Sometimes tell me I’m not who I am.

Turn them off. Shut them down. Stop their lies.

I am Love. I deserve Love. I have Love. Love

I don’t need these insecurities.

I don’t need these thoughts.

I don’t need this pain and suffering.

I don’t need these voices in my head.

I am better than all of that.

I am better than that.

I am better now.

I am better.

I am.

Sarah C. Me

Sweet Dreams...

Sleeping, dreams are chaotic. Not unusual for me. My dreams are always so vivid, so real yet unrealistic in what is happening. And most of the time I don't want to remember them. They disturb me, make me lonely, sad. Except...

I hear your voice in my ear. You say you love me. And I swear I feel your arms around me. I don't want to wake up because it feels so good. You are telling me everything is going to be okay. I can stop crying. I swear I feel your lips on my neck and your naked body pressed so tightly against mine. It feels so fucking good. I don't want to wake from this. I don't want to find out that this isn't real.

Your hands caressing my body. Your cock stiffening. Your scent. Your mouth. But it's just a dream. But it's not. I'm here. I'm really here. It all comes flooding back as I taste my own tears. I'm with you. I'm at your place. This is real.

I wake up and turn into you. Kissing your mouth. Feeling your body. How we resisted each other last night is beyond me. Just laying with each other. Naked. Talking. Holding close. Revealing ourselves to each other to the very core. So intimate. So sensual. But now. Now there is no holding back. Our desires our stronger than anything. We want and need each other.

I lay you back and begin exploring your body with my mouth. Sweet kisses, licks and gentle nips, over your shoulders, chest, and down further, to your abs, thighs. You feel my hair and nipples rubbing against you. I hear your soft moans. I find your cock fully hard as I begin to gently tease it and your balls. I taste you. Swallow you. Your hands twisting in my hair, as I swirl my tongue around you.

Then you pull me up and start to kiss me. Laying me back you devour my breasts like special treats for you. Your mouth so hot on my skin. Slowly I feel you go everywhere on me. I moan and say your name. I feel myself getting so wet. You roll me over and start kissing my neck. I feel your hard cock between the cheeks of my ass. You gently pull me up and enter me from behind, knowing that this is both our favourite position from earlier discussions.

I feel you gently push into me then thrust harder. It feels so incredible to finally have you inside of me. Your hands on my hips going deeper and deeper inside. Making me moan more.

You pull out and lay down and pull me on top of you. Your cock slides into my soaking wet pussy. Your hands all over my tits, I finger my clit and start to moan so loud. I look down into your eyes as I grind your cock. There is such a connection between us, only stronger now. Your hand joins mine as we massage my clit harder. I feel myself starting to cum. You tell me how much you love me. Tell me how beautiful I am. Then you tell me how much you want me to cum all over your cock. Your words trigger me and I start to jerk and thrust hard and release myself. I cum hard for you, screaming your name, screaming how much I love you.

I collapse on you and you roll me on my back. You begin to fuck my cunt hard and within moments you are saying my name as you cum deep inside me. I feel your hot spunk filling me up.

We kiss so passionately, almost desperately. Laying in each other's arms, our desires have been fed... in the short term. We know that soon, we will be making mad love again. Such sweet sweet dreams.

In the moonlight
we are dancing
With our hearts
Never letting go
Our love keeps us
Sustains us
So real
So passionate
Like nothing before
Like nothing to come
We are a circle
Completing each other
Making music
Our hearts in rhythm
Our souls on fire
We are just us
We are meant to be