Voices in my head...

Sometimes tell me I’m not worth it.

Sometimes tell me I’m not valuable.

Sometimes tell me I’m not good enough.

Sometimes tell me I’m not anything.

Sometimes tell me I’m not going to be happy.

Sometimes tell me I’m not who I am.

Turn them off. Shut them down. Stop their lies.

I am Love. I deserve Love. I have Love. Love

I don’t need these insecurities.

I don’t need these thoughts.

I don’t need this pain and suffering.

I don’t need these voices in my head.

I am better than all of that.

I am better than that.

I am better now.

I am better.

I am.

Sarah C. Me

Sweet Dreams...

Sleeping, dreams are chaotic. Not unusual for me. My dreams are always so vivid, so real yet unrealistic in what is happening. And most of the time I don't want to remember them. They disturb me, make me lonely, sad. Except...

I hear your voice in my ear. You say you love me. And I swear I feel your arms around me. I don't want to wake up because it feels so good. You are telling me everything is going to be okay. I can stop crying. I swear I feel your lips on my neck and your naked body pressed so tightly against mine. It feels so fucking good. I don't want to wake from this. I don't want to find out that this isn't real.

Your hands caressing my body. Your cock stiffening. Your scent. Your mouth. But it's just a dream. But it's not. I'm here. I'm really here. It all comes flooding back as I taste my own tears. I'm with you. I'm at your place. This is real.

I wake up and turn into you. Kissing your mouth. Feeling your body. How we resisted each other last night is beyond me. Just laying with each other. Naked. Talking. Holding close. Revealing ourselves to each other to the very core. So intimate. So sensual. But now. Now there is no holding back. Our desires our stronger than anything. We want and need each other.

I lay you back and begin exploring your body with my mouth. Sweet kisses, licks and gentle nips, over your shoulders, chest, and down further, to your abs, thighs. You feel my hair and nipples rubbing against you. I hear your soft moans. I find your cock fully hard as I begin to gently tease it and your balls. I taste you. Swallow you. Your hands twisting in my hair, as I swirl my tongue around you.

Then you pull me up and start to kiss me. Laying me back you devour my breasts like special treats for you. Your mouth so hot on my skin. Slowly I feel you go everywhere on me. I moan and say your name. I feel myself getting so wet. You roll me over and start kissing my neck. I feel your hard cock between the cheeks of my ass. You gently pull me up and enter me from behind, knowing that this is both our favourite position from earlier discussions.

I feel you gently push into me then thrust harder. It feels so incredible to finally have you inside of me. Your hands on my hips going deeper and deeper inside. Making me moan more.

You pull out and lay down and pull me on top of you. Your cock slides into my soaking wet pussy. Your hands all over my tits, I finger my clit and start to moan so loud. I look down into your eyes as I grind your cock. There is such a connection between us, only stronger now. Your hand joins mine as we massage my clit harder. I feel myself starting to cum. You tell me how much you love me. Tell me how beautiful I am. Then you tell me how much you want me to cum all over your cock. Your words trigger me and I start to jerk and thrust hard and release myself. I cum hard for you, screaming your name, screaming how much I love you.

I collapse on you and you roll me on my back. You begin to fuck my cunt hard and within moments you are saying my name as you cum deep inside me. I feel your hot spunk filling me up.

We kiss so passionately, almost desperately. Laying in each other's arms, our desires have been fed... in the short term. We know that soon, we will be making mad love again. Such sweet sweet dreams.

In the moonlight
we are dancing
With our hearts
Never letting go
Our love keeps us
Sustains us
So real
So passionate
Like nothing before
Like nothing to come
We are a circle
Completing each other
Making music
Our hearts in rhythm
Our souls on fire
We are just us
We are meant to be

The Encounter Satisfied.

After the shower from The Encounter Continues... and still buzzing from the moments of our arrival during The Long Awaited Encounter, we walk back into the room naked and wet. To my surprise there is a lovely feast of snacks and drinks waiting for us. We put on robes and cuddle together, feeding each other fresh fruit and chocolate, and sip our wine and just completely enjoy the moment.

Then you take me to the bed and slip my robe off. Gently you lie me down and place a blind fold over my eyes. I feel you take my hands over my head as silk ties go over my wrist snugly but not too tight. Then a cold sensation comes over me as you begin to tease my body with ice cubes. The shock waves are incredibly tense yet pleasurable. Your tongue licks up the water as it melts down my body. You tell me to open my mouth and begin to feed me some more tasty treats with your mouth, kissing me deeply afterwards.

I feel your hands, ice and mouth all over me: my tits, my abs, my thighs, and finally my soaking wet pussy. You start tonguing me and nibbling my clit. I pull against the restrains, wanting to touch you, moaning so loud and calling your name. You twist me over so my ass is up. I feel you enter me... only it's not you. You found my favourite toy that you had asked me to bring. You find the setting that drives me wild and I start screaming in ecstasy. I am twisting and jerking in pure pleasure, but you hold my hips firmly just allowing me to orgasm over and over again.

Then I feel your rod enter my ass. I think I'm going to die right there with the increased sensation. You thrust so hard as I continue to feel the vibrator work it's magic and I orgasm over again. You cum inside my ass and I feel you fill me. I hear your loud grunts and your release as you say my name over and over again.

You pull out and take my toy out of me. Then you release me from my bonds and pull the blindfold off. We kiss so passionately and deeply. Then we snuggle up together to sleep.

During the night we continue to kiss and make love on and off while dozing in between. We know that when the morning comes we will have to say goodbye. But the night is ours and we make the most of it.

I truly understand why I choose to be alone in the dark. Reaching out to you would be like putting myself up for humiliation.


My pain is much preferred over your lashing words, your mocking tones, and cold glaring eyes.


In the dark and alone is where I'm staying because reaching out to you would be suicide of my already shattered self esteem.


You proved that to me enough. There is nothing left to repair. Just leave me be. Tend to your own ego.


I leave you to your well guarded and secure defences. Leave me to my anger. #angereatsme

Your venom is poisonous.

Your bite stings.

Let it out. Get it out. 

I’m not letting you in my blood.

I’m not letting you wound me.

I will let you release all your venom,

but you will no longer be poisonous to me.

I’m shaking it off.

I have the antidote.

I have the wall that you will not penetrate.

I have my friends for support.

I have this.

So bite me with your poison.

You will no longer hurt me.

I have the knowledge to protect my heart.

I am stronger than your venom.

The Encounter continues...

I awaken dazed thinking that it all must have been a dream. I am alone, but in a strange room, strange bed. Where am I? Where are you? The memories of our long awaited encounter flood back to me. It wasn't a dream. It was real. I still feel you on my skin. Taste you on my lips. But where are you? I shudder suddenly feeling cold and lonely without you.

I get up and go into the washroom and the two person jet tub is full of steamy bubbly water. I smile to myself as I gently sink into it. The hot water rushes against my cool skin like fire but the sensation is wonderful. I relax for a bit, still wanting you. I hear the door and I open my eyes. There's my handsome man, with champagne and two glasses standing there looking at me with the biggest smile ever. I get butterflies all over as I return the gaze and a shy smile.

You come over to me, without a word and remove your shirt. Popping the cork, and filling the two glasses we toast each other and to our happiness. The bubbles tickle my throat as I drink and with the heat and the alcohol I start to feel dizzy already. You take the glasses to the side and start to bath me with a cloth, carefully and lovingly cleaning my tender spots. Kissing me so deeply and sweetly, I feel like I could explode at any moment if you stop. Not ever having your touch, I suddenly need it more than anything. My wet hands caress your chest and face, pulling you closer to me.

I feel your fingers explore my secret button, rubbing it gently at first in a continuous rhythm. Your other hand behind my head, pushing me into you as our mouths devour each other. My hand slips into your pants. Your manhood so huge and hard, pulsating with my touch. Delirium and desire takes over as you are now in the tub with your pants still on, water splashing all over the bathroom. Your mouth sucking and nibbling on my erect nipples as I try desperately to remove your pants to get to your cock. You are fingering me deep and hard. I can barely breath with the passion and excitement.

Somehow we manage to get rid of your pants, and you are now on the bottom and I'm on top of you riding you hard, grinding your cock and fingering my clit. I feel your mouth still sucking and nipping at me. Our combined moans echoing in the bathroom make it sound louder than it is. I thrust myself forward onto your shoulder as I start to cum, feeling the spasms deep within.You hold me and let me release my orgasm all over you. We kiss, biting each other's lips.

You pull me off of you and we stand up. Sitting me on the bathroom counter, you pour the champagne down my tits and lick it off of me. Leaning me back, you pour some down my pussy and drink it. Then you pour some into my mouth and let me drink.

Turning me over, so we can see each other in the mirror, you start to fuck me from behind. I feel your hands on my hips as you thrust so deep inside of me. We look into each other's eyes. I see the satisfaction in your face. I know you are about to cum. You slam a couple of times into me slowly. You withdraw and cum all over my ass while looking into my eyes.

Holding me close, you whisper that we need to shower up quickly as there is a surprise in the other room waiting for us. Oh, how you spoil me.