I truly understand why I choose to be alone in the dark. Reaching out to you would be like putting myself up for humiliation.


My pain is much preferred over your lashing words, your mocking tones, and cold glaring eyes.


In the dark and alone is where I'm staying because reaching out to you would be suicide of my already shattered self esteem.


You proved that to me enough. There is nothing left to repair. Just leave me be. Tend to your own ego.


I leave you to your well guarded and secure defences. Leave me to my anger. #angereatsme

Your venom is poisonous.

Your bite stings.

Let it out. Get it out. 

I’m not letting you in my blood.

I’m not letting you wound me.

I will let you release all your venom,

but you will no longer be poisonous to me.

I’m shaking it off.

I have the antidote.

I have the wall that you will not penetrate.

I have my friends for support.

I have this.

So bite me with your poison.

You will no longer hurt me.

I have the knowledge to protect my heart.

I am stronger than your venom.

The Encounter continues...

I awaken dazed thinking that it all must have been a dream. I am alone, but in a strange room, strange bed. Where am I? Where are you? The memories of our long awaited encounter flood back to me. It wasn't a dream. It was real. I still feel you on my skin. Taste you on my lips. But where are you? I shudder suddenly feeling cold and lonely without you.

I get up and go into the washroom and the two person jet tub is full of steamy bubbly water. I smile to myself as I gently sink into it. The hot water rushes against my cool skin like fire but the sensation is wonderful. I relax for a bit, still wanting you. I hear the door and I open my eyes. There's my handsome man, with champagne and two glasses standing there looking at me with the biggest smile ever. I get butterflies all over as I return the gaze and a shy smile.

You come over to me, without a word and remove your shirt. Popping the cork, and filling the two glasses we toast each other and to our happiness. The bubbles tickle my throat as I drink and with the heat and the alcohol I start to feel dizzy already. You take the glasses to the side and start to bath me with a cloth, carefully and lovingly cleaning my tender spots. Kissing me so deeply and sweetly, I feel like I could explode at any moment if you stop. Not ever having your touch, I suddenly need it more than anything. My wet hands caress your chest and face, pulling you closer to me.

I feel your fingers explore my secret button, rubbing it gently at first in a continuous rhythm. Your other hand behind my head, pushing me into you as our mouths devour each other. My hand slips into your pants. Your manhood so huge and hard, pulsating with my touch. Delirium and desire takes over as you are now in the tub with your pants still on, water splashing all over the bathroom. Your mouth sucking and nibbling on my erect nipples as I try desperately to remove your pants to get to your cock. You are fingering me deep and hard. I can barely breath with the passion and excitement.

Somehow we manage to get rid of your pants, and you are now on the bottom and I'm on top of you riding you hard, grinding your cock and fingering my clit. I feel your mouth still sucking and nipping at me. Our combined moans echoing in the bathroom make it sound louder than it is. I thrust myself forward onto your shoulder as I start to cum, feeling the spasms deep within.You hold me and let me release my orgasm all over you. We kiss, biting each other's lips.

You pull me off of you and we stand up. Sitting me on the bathroom counter, you pour the champagne down my tits and lick it off of me. Leaning me back, you pour some down my pussy and drink it. Then you pour some into my mouth and let me drink.

Turning me over, so we can see each other in the mirror, you start to fuck me from behind. I feel your hands on my hips as you thrust so deep inside of me. We look into each other's eyes. I see the satisfaction in your face. I know you are about to cum. You slam a couple of times into me slowly. You withdraw and cum all over my ass while looking into my eyes.

Holding me close, you whisper that we need to shower up quickly as there is a surprise in the other room waiting for us. Oh, how you spoil me.

The Long Awaited Encounter

We set the time right so that our planes land at the airport at approximately the same time. Perfect timing as the planes were not delayed. We meet at the designated spot. There you are so handsome. I walk quickly to you and we embrace. I feel that your heart is racing just as fast as mine. We kiss tenderly but timidly, afraid of our reactions to each other, afraid to give into our desires, right then and there on the airport floor.

We grab a cab and you give him instructions to the hotel. I'm still wrapped up in your arms as we just gaze into each others eyes and smile. I feel myself blushing. I know how much you want me, but also how much you love me. It sends incredible shivers through my body, that you interpret as being cold, so you pull me closer, your hand on my thigh. Kissing my neck, your hand climbs a little higher under my dress. You whisper how beautiful I am which makes me sigh in bliss. I can feel your member so hard against me through your pants. Passion and tension is building. If we don't get to the hotel soon, this cab driver will be getting a show.

As I'm about to lose control and kiss you deeply, we finally arrive at the hotel. You grab the two bags and we go to the front desk to check-in. I decide to hang back a little as I can barely control myself. But I'm smiling so big and I'm feeling so warm. You keep looking back at me, smiling sheepishly at me. I know we are thinking the same thoughts. We get to the elevator and you hand me the key. Even on the way up to the floor, we keep our distance, just looking at each other and smiling. At the room, as I slide the key into the door, I feel your hand slide down my body and squeeze my ass. I love the feeling. I press back against you as I open the door. The anticipation is killing me.

In the room I take my jacket off and sit on the bed to take off my leather boots, but you kneel before me and take one foot in your hand. Carefully you slide the boot off and start to massage my foot and leg, then remove my thigh-high. Then do the same with the other side. Then your mouth starts to kiss and lick up my thighs to my already wet panties as your hand gently pushes me to the bed. I feel almost delirious with desire and lust. I feel your mouth on the outside of my panties as I start to squirm. Then you move up my body and look into my eyes. Finally, oh yes, finally, we kiss like we have never kissed before. Like our lives depended on each other's breath. The passion that erupts from our mouths, tongues and teeth gnashing at each other as we devour each other's essence through a never ending kiss. Our hands ripping our clothes off. The need of our skin to touch overwhelming. The want of the other so intoxicating.

After rolling around on the bed getting naked and feeling each other, kissing and tasting each other, I have you on your back, I slide off the bed and pull you so that your legs are dangling off the side then on my knees I start to lick and suck on your balls one at a time, looking up at you. I think start to lick your hard shaft all the way up and flick my tongue over it. Stroking you as I play with your tip with my mouth, you are looking at me and moaning so loud. I can taste your pre-cum. Then I crawl up to you and slide my gleaming wet pussy teasingly on you, up your cock, over your abs and chest and then to your face. I squat over you pinning your arms, feeling your tongue flicking, knowing that you want more. Then you break free and grab me and start to eat me so fast and hungrily. Your fingers find my clit and start to rub. As I'm grinding on your face, it doesn't take me long to cum, as I start to scream and my body jerks. This doesn't stop you. You flip me over onto my back and continue your assault on my pussy with your mouth and fingers. You also start to finger my ass. I feel myself start to release fully and cum again for you screaming your name over and over again. My body twitching as I don't think the orgasm will ever end, nor do I want it to.

Suddenly it stops and I feel a thrust inside of me as you begin to pump me with your cock so hard and deep. You are over top of me kissing me so deeply, I taste myself on your mouth. I squeeze you between my thighs as you continue to pulse into me. I kiss and bite your neck. You look down at me in the eyes as you start to climax and kiss me. I feel your load shoot deep inside of me.

You carefully pull the blankets up over us and we cuddle into each other, feeling our hearts return to their normal beats. We whisper "I love you" as we kiss and pet each other, knowing that this is only the beginning of a wonderful weekend together.

If you knew what you were really doing

The pain inside of me

The tears that well

The Trauma you caused.

Isolated

Alone

You took away my voice

You took away my support

You killed my creative outlet

Jealousy

Insecurity

Because of these you punish me

Because of these you control me

Because of these you kill me

Togetherness it’s suppose to bring

Further apart it rips.

Resent begins to build

Coldness moves into the dark

Just Be...

Be kind to me… I’ll be kind to you.

Be nice to me… I’ll be nice to you.

Be loving to me… I’ll be loving to you.

Be sweet to me… I’ll be sweet to you.

Be rude to me… I’ll show you politeness.

Be mean to me… I’ll show you kindness.

Be cold to me… I’ll show you love.

Be hurtful to me… I’ll just smile (and cry on the inside).

But hurt the ones I love, and there is no place you can hide from me.

So just be.